Last Ramadhan, I was expecting. Therefore, I was excused from fasting. If you fast while pregnant, good for you. While I still experienced the holiness the month emanated, I still felt like I was on the sidelines. I felt that way because it was the first time since I started fasting at the age of six that I took a whole month off. It definitely felt strange. Fortunately, I wasn’t the only one because other expecting Muslim mothers felt the same and blogged about their experience. Reading their experiences helped me cope with the alien feeling to some extent.
Alhamdulillah the baby is six months now, and today I started my fast. I was supposed to start Monday but I forgot. Well, it wasn’t meant to be. That one more day allowed me to mentally prepare myself for the challenging Ramadhan Club I will be part off for the next 30 days insha’Allah.
Ramadhan Club because my human nature will try to be in the way of me completing this fard act. One shade of my human nature is the athlete in me. Haha! Did I say athlete? No, I meant the romantic sportive in me… Wink! I need focus to finish these days I owe. I mean we all know that the next Ramadhan is approaching pretty quickly! Even though, I can still be ‘romantically involved’, I rather not. That’s where the brain kicks in to remind me that I will probably go back on my word. Then, the criminal shade of me will fuel my nafs to convince me that I can even do better and stretch myself over the next two and half months when we know that procrastination is never a good thing. This is because it leads to me becoming a nervous wreck, obsessing on not enough days left to fast 30 days when another 30 days are about to start. Behold, we now have the basket case. But maybe I won’t be a royal mess. I look forward to be a princess flower and last long enough to complete my late Ramadhan with the mix I have in the Ramadhan Club. As a new Glory Bush bloom, I hear early summer is ideal. Please make dua for me. I pray for all of you around the world as well that Allah facilitates this payback, amiin.
If you had a baby right around the same time I did, let’s do this together insha’Allah ukhtys!
Jazak’Allah khair for reading,